lost childhood

This question often haunts me. Has any body thought about what the vietnam war, Has done to our own kids. My self I spent most of my child hood years wandering who my father was. My mother didn't have a good reason why he wasn't around. All I knew was that He was never there. First 6 mounths than a year than amost a year and a half went by, and that was one tour. My father spent three tours in vietnam. I only found this out a few years ago when my grand mother died. My uncle told my lots of stories, My father is stlii haunted with. My mother told me he used to write her letters telling her that he was going to die, and that he was not going to make it home. I really do thank all the vieterans for my freedom. But war is hell. can any body relate to this? clay